My god,
what the hell is happening.

We weren't even fighting.
Whywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhy
Why must this always happen. This is killing me.
What did I do? Why must things turn out this way again. Why me? Why is it happening at the same time? Why is it hapenning over and over again.
I look at my archives, I'm so damn happy we got through everything, but now everything's coming back. I miss you so much. So much so much. I may look happy, but can't you see how i actually feel? Whenever i see you, i just feel like crying. I cried that day, after school, i couldn't take it any longer.

I don't want history repeating itself, again and again.
why me, i ask myself over and over.

I tell you what, I dont want these things happening again. I hate it. So i am going to step up and do something for the sake of our friendship. You may not want to see me, you may not want to talk to me, but I'm telling you, I will resolve this matter.




I'm getting so affected by every single thing that goes wrong. Now that tests are here, i really want to concentrate and study. Especially when 2 friendship stuffs are going wrong. It's too much for me to take and i just get all unhappy.
what a bad day.

I'M MISSING YOU.
i am feeling awful